Thoughts

It feels weird to start forgetting. To feel free and light of all the demons that have haunted and lived within you for all the time you’ve known.Moving forward into a space with uncertainty of knowledge and control is terrifying. When you have lived in the depths of the your mind for what feels like...

I'm not sure where I was going with this apart from the fact I'm currently wide awake at 11pm on a Sunday night with nothing left to do apart from letting my thoughts run wild. I want to quickly touch on sleep deprivation and how it can have an astonishing effect physically and mentally yet...

21.04.19

As I sit here, music blaring over the traffic noise though my ears, one leg tucked up under the other and a full bladder I stare out through the mesh netting which is not helping the blurred vision I already have from the vodka induced self-soothing I have taken upon myself. I usually can’t write...

You got to do what you got to do…

You got to do what you got to do... As I have written many times before you You got to do what you got to do. What is right for you. Selfishness and selflessness, a very similar combination of letters that when scrambled the correct way can mean totally different things.   The word 'selfish'...

Minimalist

Minimalist. What does it mean? If you go to the Oxford Dictionary it will give you one definition. If you ask Google it will give you 3 other definitions each which have nothing to do with what I am trying to get at. Lastly if you take a moment to stop and think, what does...

A Year On.

Had you asked me 2 years ago if I would have done what I did last year by myself you probably would have gotten a sarcastic ‘yeah right’. But I soon discovered the weird, emotional impact stress, anxiety, compassion fatigue, and the constant questioning of life and where I was heading, had on me. By...

Healing.

I read an article the other day titled 'Signs you're starting to heal from depression and anxiety'. The few split seconds between reading this title and the click of the mouse and then waiting for the web page to load my stomach became knotted in the unknown fear of what I was about to read....

Labels.

I have always considered myself to be a little behind the rest of the crowd. Whether it was taking my first steps as a toddler, being able to read & write or obtaining my pen licence. Those were milestones that occurred in the first 10 years of life. In the second 10 it was being...

Speak your voice.

I was sent a link to an article the other day by a friend. Its not the sort of topic I would usual delve into on my own accord but I took the time to read through it. Carefully processing each word and deciphering the meaning of it all, I was scared how relate-able everything...

Black Dog

https://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc This video perfectly but also scarily represent how accurate depression and anxiety can feel. Unfortunately there is still such a stigma and taboo around Mental Health and the awareness that needs to be made about it. Personally it makes my stomach churn when ever I have to talk about it, as much as I...